This morning my husband and I are embarking on a journey. We’ve been asked to help lead praise and worship for a Point to Hope conference down in Augusta, Georgia. So we’ve loaded up our rental car, and departed from the hills of West Virginia.
You could probably cut our anticipation with a knife. Sure we’ve been on praise and worship teams before, but it’s been in the familiar security of our home church. This opportunity is new and exciting for us.
Out of My Comfort Zone
If you would have told me a few years ago that I would be describing it as exciting, I probably would have looked at you like you had grown two heads! I enjoyed the spotlight via theatre in high school, but after I graduated, I became a bit of a recluse. As I’ve mentioned in a previous post, fear ruled my life.
Following the call of God wasn’t exactly on my agenda. I thought, that’s terrifying! God wouldn’t ask me to do that. He knows I’m afraid. If He wanted me to do things like that, He wouldn’t have made me this way. You could say that I didn’t know Him or myself very well.
Beyond that, I didn’t even know my husband yet! I was a lonely, broken, and hurting mother of two beautiful children whom I worried I was failing. I felt that I had no purpose and that somehow God had made a mistake in creating me. Life was a roller coaster of crazy highs and immensely deep lows. My emotions and mental state were continuously being tossed back and forth based on what was going on around me.
What a Difference…
It’s amazing to look back and see how far my life has come in such a short time. What would that hopeless girl think if she could see her life now?
Not only did God send me a loving and patient husband, but he also surrounded me with people who poured words of encouragement into me, showing me love and giving me hope. Little by little, I’ve been growing in His truth and developing confidence in what God says about me. Slowly, I’m realizing what He says is my reality. Don’t get me wrong; I’m still far from where I’m going to be! But I’m on my way.
I put my trust in Him, and He’s taking me on to higher things.
Trust in God
Over and over the Bible gives us examples of people who decided to put their faith and trust in God. They radically put all their eggs in one basket and were used for amazing things.
That’s what I want my life to look like. Even though I might tremble, I want to step out anyway, knowing that in my weakness, He’ll supply strength (2 Corinthians 12:9). I want to live with abandon, place all confidence in His ability, and not worry that I may mess it all up. I want to be like Abraham. Like Moses, Joshua, Elijah and Elisha.
An Abundant Life
And we can. In fact, we can be even greater. While all of them knew God, they were born before a time when God came to live inside His people. We have the Holy Spirit in us now. While some people do still hear the audible voice of God, we don’t have to. His spirit whispers to our inner man. His laws are written on our hearts so memorizing them doesn’t have to be the primary focus of our daily lives. We have purposes to fulfill and abundance to grab a hold of. Our time is better spent looking to Him & His plan than dwelling on our own downfalls.
That’s what He’s doing for me. He’s helping me take the focus off all the things that are “wrong” with me. Endless time could be spent picking over all the ways I mess up every. Single. Day. But when I can focus on Him, I can see beyond myself and look forward to all that He has planned.
The journey continues. And I’m expecting big things.
Until next time,
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